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Incandescence: 

They say It's always the nice one's that get burned.

So burn.

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It will hurt in every moment of every day.
Sometimes it will reduce to a smolder  and you will become
gently numb to the pain and 
life will be beautiful.

Sometimes it will swallow you up.
Sheets of flames and smoke and heat too thick to see through.
It will bring you to your knees and 
still life will be beautiful.

It will be beautiful
because you are giving the world 
and yourself
light.
~M



"...so I pulled my heart out and placed it in a lantern."

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"I'm sorry about me":

Torture is having seen yourself at your best and having to deal constantly with yourself at less; feeling like you constantly need to live up to that and how exhausting that is; how you're constantly letting yourself down; how you feel the need to constantly apologize for yourself; feeling like a stranger in your own head; all your decisions are no longer between "right and wrong" but now between "wrong and hopefully less wrong".

I'm sorry, I'm a mess and you can't see it It's all you can see.

I am beautiful, I just don't know when or how.

Maybe you'll see it some day.

I hope you see it one day.

~M