Wednesday, January 7, 2015

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"I'm sorry about me":



Torture is having seen yourself at your best and having to deal constantly with yourself at less; feeling like you constantly need to live up to that and how exhausting that is; how you're constantly letting yourself down; how you feel the need to constantly apologize for yourself; feeling like a stranger in your own head; all your decisions are no longer between "right and wrong" but now between "wrong and hopefully less wrong".

I'm sorry, I'm a mess and you can't see it It's all you can see.

I am beautiful, I just don't know when or how.

Maybe you'll see it some day.

I hope you see it one day.

~M
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4 comments:

  1. Avery Jalaine TaylorJanuary 8, 2015 at 11:22 PM

    WHAT THE.

    Team "I am beautiful, I just don't know how or when" (!!!!)

    You are the best and I hope all your enemies die.

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  2. SabrinaJanuary 26, 2015 at 4:10 PM

    I just tumbled across your blog. This piece put everything I've felt these past couple months but couldn't express into words. What a relief to have read this. Thank You.

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    1. MattMarch 5, 2015 at 4:58 AM

      Wow, you are very welcome.
      Thank you for this. What you've said means a lot and broke my heart in the best way.
      I'm sorry you understand how this feels,

      I'm curious as to how, specifically, you found me. Fill me in?

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    2. MattMarch 5, 2015 at 4:59 AM

      I also can't believe I didn't see this till now, I'm sorry.

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